This is going to be a unique forum, so I demand the utmost respect be used when commenting, considering some issues will be delicate and you will not agree with everything you read and/or comment.
My story is similar to most in this world, so I will post blogs to open up discussion, hopefully create a rich environment where hearts will break sharing memories and afterwards, mend with new purpose.
This first blog will be about just that... purpose. Let us begin, shall we?
A new year is on the horizon and deep in my bones I feel an excitement building, an anticipation for a new life that is sparkling fresh, scrubbed free from all the bitterness of the past, dipped clean of all the ragged sores that have plagued our little family. So many new changes coming, huge changes. What an exciting time for everyone in our family.
Looking around, I see so many of my friends and family standing at the precipice overlooking a new beginning and I can't help but be excited for them, as well. How can any cup be half empty? If your eyes are open, if you are able to breathe and laugh, you are better off then many in this world, which leads me to the purpose of this blog.
I COULD ask the traditional question "What is your New Years Resolution"... ahh, but most people that know me, know that I am one to make you think. Instead, I will ask the following: "What was the greatest lesson you learned over the last year? What has been your highest point and what was your lowest? What did you learn from both?" Share, so we may learn from each other.
I think the greatest lesson I learned this year was that people aren't always what they appear to be. I also learned that in the midst of chaos beautiful things can happen. My lowest point was definitly finding out that a woman who is supposedly so loving, forgiving, understanding, supportive, and mostly religious is nothing more than a greedy, hateful, and vindictive person who wanted nothing more than to hurt me and my son. The reason? Nothing more than the fact that I moved on without her son.
ReplyDeleteMy highest point was by far running into my high school sweetheart after twenty years and falling in love with him all over again. Taking his beautiful kids in was also a blessing. I wouldn't change anything about this past year. It has been the best I have had in a very long time. Chaos included!!
The lesson I learned this year was understanding what I want in a relationship, not to settle and understanding you can not fix anyone. That the man who enters my life in the future needs to be the kind of partner I want from the beginning. The lowest was realizing the love and devotion I had for my then husband was one sided. Trust was hard when we first started dating. I let him in only to be used. I can't put in words how much pain that caused me for such a long time. My highest point is now, starting over. healthier mentally. ready to go back to school,teaching and loving it.
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